2012-05-27

esc 2012 final - euphoria!

My god what a night. Euphoria! Oh Eurovision Song Contest, how I love this phenomenon. All of the melodies, the performances, the happiness, the worst jokes, the prettiest cards, the lavished arenas, the poor English, the unyielding French, the singing out of tunes, the cutest babushkas, the magnificient intermissions who sometimes just shocks, the nice production, the neighbourliness (which I believe actually is a sign of same culture), the nailbiting results of voting. This uniting competition which provides love and peace. And this year Sweden sent our best contribution ever. Probably one of the best in Eurovision all time. I'm thrilled by this loveable magical girl and her outstanding performance. Thank you Loreen! Though I'm a bit shocked about the northern for the rest, they were worth much more. Especially Iceland.




Top five:
1. Sweden, 372 points
2. Russia, 259 points
3. Serbia, 214 points
4. Azerbaijan, 150 points
5. Albania, 146 points

2012-05-24

esc 2012 semi-final 2

And the second semi-final was just as awesome as the first one. I totally love this. And I love that so many sings in their own languages this year. And I adore our magical Loreen. She makes me proud to be a Swede. Go Sweden! And the other favorites of mine. It's gonna be so exciting to see the final on Saturday.

And of course: the list of the melodies this evening. (This time Georgia's missing. Maybe it appears later. Montenegro did.)
And here are the finals.

And my favorites. Not all of them made it to the final but still, here they are. Keeps my fingers crossed.

2012-05-23

esc 2012 semi-final 1

Tonight I've seen the first semi-final of Eurovision Song Contest 2012. You've got to love Eurovision Song Contest. Leastways I do. All this music. The worst ones, and the best. Thursday's the second semi. And then. On Saturday. The big final. Longing. Loving. I'll watch.

Here's the first semi-final melodies. Montenegro and Albania are missing since I couldn't find them on Spotify.

This years host country (last years winner) and the big five (who are directly qualified to the final since they contributes that much money to the competition) have I also made a list of. You can listen to them here if you want to.

2012-05-18

the soundtrack of hunger games

Today I'm listening to the soundtrack of the Hunger Games. I'm never gonna get tired of this. Those soundtracks. The magic of the composing skills. To tell the stories by means of music. It reminds me why original soundtracks has such an important role. This place which I heart so. It's just beautiful! And James Newton Howard, you're one of a kind. Emotional perfection.

Not to forget the melodies in this soundtrack which also includes singing. Even though I don't really gets their spots in the movie. In fact I've notised that only a coulpe of these melodies are included in the film. Or did I get it wrong? I just feels the world through melodies like these though. Right now they're including everything that matters.

awkward.

One year ago I thought I had the most perfect class. I loved everyone of them. Spent a lot of my spare time with many of them. In the fall it went on. Even better. Felt so loved. Few people have ever meant that much as they did. I've never felt less alone. Then. I'm not really sure what happend. Don't think I ever been so sad. Never felt so broken. Hurt. Devastated. Misconstrued. Now it feels I've never been more alone. Just because one turned away it seems everyone did. Conclusion? Not even try to trust people anymore? This sucks!

So. Now I'm gonna quit writing about my fucking life. The drabness of everyday life. My awkward me. That's just boring to read, and boring to write. There are things much more interesting. Lets change turn to that sort of stuff. Today I recorded a couple of sequences. A little more filming and then I'm gonna edit it. Yey. And I've decided this summers project's gonna be a new manuscript. More about that. Later.

Tonight i feel calm. Calmer. Thankful. Tonight I eat meat!

2012-05-17

moments of panic

I have an essay to do. And what do you think I do? Anything but that stupid essay. I'm gonna regret this day.

Sadface.

beware goddamnit


I've never thought about leaving Sweden, now I can't bear this country. This cursed city. Give me a tattoo and let me go do some movies!


I don't recognize myself.

2012-05-16

globalization

Since I now write in English I believe it's pretty interesting that it all of a sudden seems to be more readers here. Even though I actually think it's a coincidence I must admit it makes me wanna write more and in a better way. My truly interests. Causes and effects. Local and global. To deal with what I love the most, movies. Most of all movies. And music! This whole English-thing just motivates me. And maybe most interesting, I believe I feel less "jantelag" when I writes in English. Jantelagen which sort of tells us not to be confident or proud in ourselves, in what we do or who we are. This typical Swedish phenomenon. Such as the fact that my English actually sucks. In Sweden we shall say it, without saying it. Does that make any sense? Does anything of this make any sense?

to promote love

Once again I've seen one of those sugary chick flicks. Filled with that kind of love which only happens in films. I so hate this kind of movies. And still I love them. A cool boy and a less cool girl (or the other way around) meets. Love appears and then complications. But it always ends great with an "and then they got each other and they lived happily ever after". Sort of. It's just so tacky. But as I said. I still love it. Probably because it'll never happens in reality. But dreams are for hope, to watch gives a part of that dream. Just a spark. A glimpse of happiness to enjoy. To feel. Then I think it's actually not that impossible either for me. As matter in fact I would probably be a perfect girlfriend. I'm fond of helping and be there for someone else. To spread out my love, part my heart. People approves me. At least they say. So. Actually it should not be that hard - thus I can't believe I'm still single. I'm perfect just ready to give it all. So where are you? Or wait a second. I even can't talk to boys. And I'm not even sure I believe this kind of love really exists, at all. Or am I afraid? No, enough now. I've finally accept myself to be the everlasting single. Now we're gonna leave this subject and I'm gonna stay by these tacky chick flicks of mine. Now I'm gonna smeyes and jump in relief!

2012-05-15

if you think you are a movie

Once again I've visit the cinema in town. And it reminds me of all movies I haven't told you about the last couple of mounths. Since I'm in order to get the goldmembership in SF's cinemaclub I'd like to tell you about them. Nevertheless in case to remind myself of what I've seen. So, here we go. Briefly reviewed.


The Adventures of Tintin: The Secret of the Unicorn, 3D (4/11)
My expectations for this movie was enormous so when I watched this film I couldn't help feeling some disappointment. Still I have to admit the production to be well-made and include a nice part of view. JJJ

En dag (15/11)
Or actually One day, the story about a couple who never can decide if they are going to be with each other or not. It only irritates me. I'm able to see the nice things but overall nothing really hits me. It's okay and it's all I can say. JJJ

In time (28/11)
While watching this narrative i realized how this movie is inspired by many other things. Maybe it's only my imagination but I see parts from Robin Hood and other parts from Bonnie & Clyde, and World War III at the same time. Yet I like this concept and accepts the whole thing. But still, somethings missing. JJJ

Simon och ekarna (15/12)
This movie, based on a novel by Marianne Fredriksson, is something else. It's a beautiful story claimed to the oppressived atmosphere in the years round World War III. It's about implicit reactions of familysecrets and the fear of the war and who you really are. I wished to tell you my satisfaction over this but sadly I have to admit the script and the picture spoiled my impressions of this. The male minor part did however suprise me with his extraordinary version of Ruben Lentov. JJJ

Sherlock Holmes: Game of the Shadows (1/1)
One of my favorite actors is the one and only Robert Downey Jr. And as Sherlock I really have to say his got a role suited perfectly for him. I love this version of Sherlock. Guy Ritchies photo and visual effects makes a teriffic picture. And not least the music which i think is most important in all kind of films. Though I believe this second movie in many ways is inferior compare to the first one. Some effects just feels done. However i think the story is more interesting. I'm simply still in love with this! JJJJ

Förbjuden kärlek/Circumstance (6/1)
Circumstance tells a story about two Iranian girls finding their love to each other while the whole civilization speaks against their love. This is such an interesting and important movie. It's refreshing as well as gratifying to see a well-done production including this subject. I personally prefer the outspoken word to allow the love no matter what, to see a movie like this just makes me glad. And thoughtful. How can love ever be wrong no matter who we are or which country to be? JJJJ

Shame (18/1)
Okey. Naked film, naked Fassbender, naked story. I miss the circumstanses which caused these complex consequences. Now it feels pretty empty without any profundity. And I don't like Fassbenders performance, at all. I don't believe him, he doesn't affect me while watching. Overall it's just naked emptiness. Okey is just only an okey. JJJ

My week with Marilyn (26/1)
Marilyn, such a fascinating person. And Michelle Williams did this very well. Yet I can't feel it really sticks to me. It's though a wondelful story about a person who affected so many people at her time, in her own special way. To get a part of this movie and the cultural treasure Marilyn became part of is just a bless. JJJ

Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy (14/2)
Seeing this complicated movie made me pretty tired I remember. Just a blink and you missed an important sequence in the narrative. I think such movies mostly are the greatest but in this case it just made me tired and uninterested. We'll see if I give it another try on some future occasion. JJJ

The Descendants (23/2)
I really looked forward to see the Descendants and I must say I liked it. It's a current topic made in an interesting way. Though it was good it didn't reached all of my expectations. I cannot put the finger on what's missing but it's something. JJJJ

Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (29/2)
This was a spontaneous movie with dear friends. About a boys bereavement after his fathers death in World Trade Center and his surch for the locker of a key he founds. This is okey overall but repeatedly I realizes myself just wondering if the boy is autistic or not. Max von Sydow, one of Sweden's pride in Hollywood however did an excellent work. JJJJ

The Iron Lady (7/3)
Historical story about a historic lady, Margaret Thatcher. Meryl Streep is just marvellous but still I feel I'm on a boring history lesson. Only done to explain a human fate. Interesting of course but no more and it makes me feel sorrow. JJJ

Kvarteret Skatan reser till Laholm (16/3)
A friend of mine gave me this visit for birthdaypresent after eating a lovely steakedinner att Jensen's. It was one of the loveliest birthdaysevenings ever so I'm sorry to say the movie wasn't that good. In my opinion swedish films mostly are pretty bad. Especially when it's a comedy, which in this case it was. I just can't deal with it. And. Who ever jokes about cancer? Just asking. I know I have a pretty weird morbid sence of humour but this was just bad. In spite of that i did giggle once or twice. JJ

The Hunger Games (29/3)
Goodness! I was overwhelmed by this. I've almost never felt a movie stick on to me like that. It's glued to my mind ever since I saw it. The most loveable music and the story which touched my heart. Such sad and cruel environment. Afterwards I had to read all three books, it took just a few days. Part II and III are even better than the first one and it's almost unbearable to wait for the second movie to approach. This is close perfection but it doesn't reaches all the way. JJJJ

Iron Sky (19/4)
Another spontaneous visit at the cinema. The most fishy movie ever. I mean, it was really quite a nice production, nice point of views and proper settings. And i did laugh a couple of times, but no. I have no words. Sickness! I though love the idea of Nazis on the moon! Their twisted visions are most welcome to be spread. For their disadvantage. JJ

The Avengers, 3D (30/4)
And we went to the party of heroes. It's not that hard to understand why this movie gains all success. It deserves it. It's awesome and I believe my expectations were far from close to actually realize how good this movie ever could be. Even though I really like all the earlier movies about these heroes (of course especially Iron Man) I had my doubts. In cases like this it might sometimes just get to much. But it's the opposite. Nice edited, nice visual and 3D-effects, nice music, nice acting, nice picture. And to gather different worlds like that. Yes I love it! JJJJ

Dark Shadows (14/5)
Fabulous Tim Burtons latest. Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter, and some others. Loveness as usual! Though I cannot say it's complete. Maybe it's because I hate vampires. I don't know. I just cannot figure what's going on inside Burtons head but this is proclaimed to be a comedy and I barely laugh. Actually it's ambivalent to several genres. It's not horrible, no satisfactory. It's serious without being serious. Not even the surroundings which marks Burton is really included. I may be missing the point but I began to wonder why I nowadays can't find Burton in Burtons productions. A deformed witch made by china, quirky Bonham Carter and Depps lovely voice are what most saves this. JJJ

2012-05-12

still alive

And sometimes I write in English. To practice for the prospect of my future. The future of my life. At least in my dreams. Actually, why wouldn't I be able to? Me as well as someone else.

I know it's been quiet a while. Pretty long while then you might think. But hey, at least I'm alive! This spring is the thoughest in years. I think. Though I believe I'm gonna make it. Because I'm a survivor and we survivors sticks to no matter what. So I'm gonna make sure I'll pull through. With some help of the most wonderful music and movies to comfort. Right now I thank god for Black Keys, Hunger Games soundtrack, fun. along with most loveable Of Monsters and Men. Of course all cinemas. And not least those people which I know really are my friends.